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PostSecret of the Week

2009-03-03T05:02:47Z

Post Valentine Post

2009-02-18T10:42:44Z

Thoughts....and more thoughts ;-)

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First Valentine, outside Pinas that is. New environment but still the same, old me. I’m not gonna bitch about how all lovers can go to hell but just for the reason that I have spare time to kill and luckily, my desk is clear and so I’m writing. And I kind of miss it too.

I’m not the type who thinks valentines day is overrated. Whenever I see hearts or red balloons, I’d get reminded that sure, I’d want to receive flowers as well. But unfortunately (for-a-lack-of-a-better-term) I still do not have that “someone” just yet.

I recall the last time I received roses. Long stemmed, and a dozen of ‘em. It was one of those “kilig” at first sight moments. The card didn’t say who it was from, maybe it’s the usual deal, you know for more pa-kilig moments. But at that time, it didn’t matter who the roses are from. I was too kilig to have received flowers. Not too mention my favorite.

It was from the boyfriend. You know the type who you wouldn’t think would actually go to a flower shop and book for a delivery. Ofcourse knowing that it was from someone you care made it all the more special.

Now fast forward and I find difficulty trying to recall the last time I get to be asked out on a date on valentines day. Not that it makes me a loser of some sort. Valentines isn’t just for couples. Yeah, yeah, ‘course we all know that “valentines is suppose to be like a celebration of love, any form of love” thingy but somehow, for some reason, people and places made it look like a something special event for couples- married or unmarried or yet-to-be married.

Feb 14 is Feb 14. Just like any other regular day in the middle east. Just like Christmas where you could not smell nor see nor hear nor feel the spirit. Ofcourse, there are restaurants who puts up special promos but I’d like to think its just an excuse for an “unreasonably-priced dinner for two” that if and when you take a second look and try to do the math in your head, is in fact overly priced but you still go in and dine because its valentines anyway.

Going back, vday was spent drinking and dancing in the company of good friends. It’s still a celebration anyway, only that of kind of love you have with friends. And for us, it was just another decent excuse to dress up and put something nice on, and yeah, to get drunk as well (as if we need one, lol).

For the longest time since I do-not-know-when, I get to be asked on date. On valentines day itself. Not by the Lebanese crush but by that Yugoslavian guy over the bar. Nothing too formal, just “where do you plan to take me… I don’t know maybe coffee?” thingy. Yeah right, coffee. Several events from the past made the sound of “coffee” too awkward for me. But this one is different methinks. A coffee date sounds cute, doesn’t it? After 48 years I get to be asked on a real coffee date. Who would’ve thought? After 48 years and I chickened out. I blew it off. I (intentionally) missed his call so I texted the “I was too sloshed last night and today I’m paying the price, so yeah, I can’t see you tonight” lame excuse.

I guess that’s the problem with me. When I get to be asked on a formal date by someone I barely know, I get that “I’m not that into him” vibe but when I get to be asked for “coffee” after having consumed not too many bottles of beer by someone not too random, you’ll know where I usually end up. Such a shame.

Three years of hiatus is enough. Not that I’m getting tired of all the fun and thrill of anonymity. But for once, definitely a surprise for me too, I want something serious. Not for reel but something for real. I’d like to think that I’m too young to worry about that stuff but yeah, another just for once, I’d love to have a company. You know that someone who will consistently be there, someone whom you don’t have to share with anybody, and finally someone who can look over you, not from a distant but somewhere you know is just within your reach. =)

Taympers muna ulit

2009-02-03T10:31:55Z

Talaga namang nakikisama ang internet sa pagkabagot ko.

Round 2 -

BUT WAIT! There's more!

So what are you waiting for? Sakay na... este apply na! (just make sure you folks are married, not to mention you must have "strong" knees!)

lol, onli in da pilipins

Taympers muna

2009-02-03T07:29:10Z

Laugh trip muna tayo mga ate at kuya-

1. Sick Leave availed two days or more consecutive should be submitted with medical certificate.

2. Yes. Even if he goes to government hospital / clinic they still need to attested there medical certificate .

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susmaryosep! ano daw?????

me and my redhead

2009-01-18T05:44:42Z

Blame it on Twilight.. and believe it or not... Kris Aquino! Haha ;-)

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2009-01-07T14:55:26Z

First blog of 09...

...and yet I can't seem to write a proper start. In fact, I have a lot on mind. I always do. But the thing is, well, never mind. I can't seem to write that down either. So, just like the rest, here's mine, in bullets-

I missed work today. I'm staying home. Alone. My sinus is killing me and the medicines don't seem to work. It's the weather, which I'm growing a love and hate relationship with. I didn't expect it to be this cold! But hey, we all get to dress up, don't we? So there.

I'm growing tired of my boss. Well, he's not worth any space here so I'll finish with that. But, on second though, let me just say, to get it off my chest- I'd give him an A for being the world's greatest asshole. You know, the one, that does not have a heart. And a soul, at all. Karma is actually proven to be faster than the bullet trains in Japan and he too, will definitely get to you.

I was actually inspired of Kofeeholic's random resolutions which says something like "Read more, write more and eat less"... yes, will definitely try that one. Thanks to Au's chicken soup I have something to start with. Plus I'd like to go back to not having "bloated-looking" stomach all the time. I'd still eat of course, it's something I, together with my friends enjoy doing. So, let me start by eating in moderation and not look like I was starved for one week so I'd look healthier and can put those bikini's back on (in due time of course) again. teehee.

I dreamt of him again. For the second time around. I'd like to make myself believe those are totally meaningless. I've got a lovely bracelet seating on my table at work and all I do each day is steal glances at it. There is no way on earth I am going to put that on my wrist. Maybe this is not the first time I am saying this but yeah, think I'm gonna behave myself for a while. Not so fond of traversing roads I am not familiar with, especially those that lead to nowhere so there, a stop will be definitely put to it. I know I deserve better.

I can't belive I am actually having fun in facebook. Though I still look at it as something way too complicated for me, with the poking and all, plus a 100 invites and requests to this and that- which reminds me to click on that ignore all button (sorry people, really not my thing), it actually is fun. But hey, if you need to invite me for something that'll earn you points for whatever, do send a message. I am not a heartless individual after all.

My sister just gave birth to the cutest baby boy and the thought of being unable to see him and carry him and kiss him and hug him is killing me. Well if there's any consolation, his pictures and some videos were posted online so I got to see him after all. Now it all the more makes me excited to go home. And poor me I can't, for now. So I guess tita gorgeous just have to wait for the time being.

Guess that's all for now. I have to do my nails and cook rice for dinner. Just rice. Because I'd rather leave the "other" cooking to Au ;-)

Baby Brylle

2008-12-24T06:54:13Z

Link

Seeing him and hearing him cry all the more makes me want to go back home!

Widget of the Day

2008-12-18T06:42:38Z

"Here's the truth about the truth. It hurts, so we lie.."

- Dr. Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy

Widget of the Day

2008-12-18T06:38:35Z

"Here's the truth about the truth. It hurts, so we lie"

- Dr. Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy

Postsecret of the Week

2008-12-15T08:31:25Z

To my One and Only Bebe...

2008-12-11T04:51:00Z

Happy Birthday!
Let's drink the night away...
I love you

testing..

2008-12-07T07:54:28Z

Global Village
Dubai, AE

.....

2008-11-09T05:13:27Z

Just because you smile does not necessarily mean you're happy.
there's a whole lot of difference from people who ask you what the drama is all about to those who ask you "what's wrong"
sometimes, no matter how hard you wish for something, if it's not meant to be yours, it will never be yours.
some people are never meant to be far from home, from family, from friends.
It's funny how money changes people, things, events, and worst- outlook and perspective in life.

<...just thinking out loud>

don't worry. it's just not you. Even I, is getting really really tired of having to feel this way.

Maybe...just maybe

2008-11-07T13:58:52Z

that if time and money was no object, i'd hop on a plane and be in pinas the day after tomorrow, will be on the bus the next day on the way to Bolinao for a much needed beachineering, put on a really nice dress after a day or two of sun exposure and head straight to Bed so I can dance and drink the night away.

:((

It may be the pill, or worse... it's just me.

I wanna come home. seriously.

What to do Yani?

2008-10-31T09:19:27Z

Because Pangga... I mean Au's pangga is making me kulit to cut my hair short as in as soon as possible... not to mention just short- really really short, just because he saw my pictures when Abel was still taking care of my hairlaloo.... now I just want to hop on a plane to pinas and book Abel for a haircut.

About two months ago, I was 100% sure I am gonna grow my hair back. It's sort of me missing the things that I can do with my hair when it was still long. You know that "pa-girl effect".

I said I'm giving myself a week's time to decide. Pero, lito parin ako. As if major decision etu!

So friends, a little help would be nice ;p

In addition, Ga said something like "para kang kakaluwas lang galing Bicol" how racist of hime! hahahahahahaha - if you get what I mean ;p

Ack!

2008-10-12T12:49:52Z

Let me just say I am so looking forward to watching this movie. I just hope it'll be shown here *crossing fingers*

Seeing this somehow makes me miss manila and my friends again. I missed watching SATC with Margs and Toni; hell didn't even pursue watching it in big screen - which was worth it, because apparently,

Dubai, being the conservative country that it is, had all the best parts of the movie, cut. Which makes the pirated dvd my bebe bought, definitely worth it *giggles*

And seeing this somehow, in part 2, makes me miss and realize how I have had the time, back in manila, to read books. I used to remember how I, Margs and Toni used to call and text each other only to gush about Becky and Luke and to remind one another to bring the other books so we all get to read the complete Shopaholic series. We're cheapskates and Margs only had the books (thanks to Richard!) so we were on rotation.

And speaking of time management, now I completely wonder on how I was able to do a lot of stuff back in

Manila. Given the night shift, I was able to read books, blog almost every other day, go out with friends, spare 2-3 hours lounging in Starbucks, malling, watch my favorite series namely Gossip Girl, Grey's Anatomy, Project Runway, ANTM and so on.

While on a completely, utterly, different note- here is a totally different subject. I wake up in the morning, go to work, work, go home, eat and then sleep. Sometimes I get to go with friends to dine out or window shop but other than that, from the stuff that has been enumerated above, I am unfortunately unable to do so.

Which makes the list of the things that I want to do and go back to doing, longer. I miss reading. I miss my almost daily dose of starbucks and laughtrip with Den. I miss partying. I miss the beach. I miss the spontaneity of my life.

Ang masasabi ko nalang.... *hay* sabay hinga ng malalim.

...of dreams

2008-10-07T09:49:32Z

For the first time, ever since I moved here- last night was the first night I have had a very bad dream. In fact it was actually the first time I dreamt of witnessing a friend being killed. Without exaggerating, it was the scariest.

I should've brought my dream catcher with me :(

I had to google dream interpretation urls, and so it said-

Death
Dreaming about death is very common and it can be interpreted in many different ways. Death is usually a symbol of some type of closure or end. It implies an end to one thing and a beginning of another. Death dreams usually have positive symbolism. If you are the dead person in your dream, it could imply that you would like to leave all of your worries and struggles behind and begin anew. Dreaming about someone that you care about may express your fear about losing them. Dreaming that one of your parents died may express fear of loss, but it also may be an unconscious valve through which you release anger and other negative feelings. In some cultures dreaming about death and dying is a very good omen that represents longevity and prosperity.

I'll take this one "In some cultures dreaming about death and dying is a very good omen that represents longevity and prosperity".

so far, nothing too serious to worry about. It's just not the nicest feeling waking up to a dream as bad and as scary as that.

-back to hiatus-

Sunday Secret

2008-08-31T05:26:13Z

Magandang Umaga

2008-08-23T08:14:53Z

Ripped these off from Chuvaness

Italian Priests

- vs -

Mormons

It's pretty much obvious who wins by default! ;-)

Postsecret of the Day

2008-08-20T06:10:02Z

oh, and you can add math to that =p

...

2008-08-18T05:05:01Z

this is the closest I can get...

Because I love my aviator shades =p

How fun!!! Go create your own Manga now! Here!

wtf

2008-08-13T07:58:14Z

I was trying to open this site, when suddenly...

Seriously?

Happy na, Birthday pa

2008-08-12T04:19:21Z

Last night, I went home to this...

A SURPRISE BIRTHDAY CAKE!!!

Thanks Bebe, Sabi ko na nga ba matagal ka ng may pagnanasa sakin e ;p Love you ;p

And to everyone who took the time and effort to send out birthday greetings... thank you from the bottom of my heart =)

Joyeux Anniversaire à Moi

2008-08-11T06:13:33Z

So, tomorrow happens to be special day.

In more than four years now, I have always been excited looking forward to this day. I normally plan out simple celebrations because when I was kid, I could not remember having celebrations or birthdays cakes. Simply because I did not have. Tons of photo albums kept by my mom are merely photos of my sisters' birthday celebrations. I did have photos, but not of birthdays and balloons or kids gathered singing happy birthday while I blow off candles.

I did not complain. In my mind, being a kid of course, I get lonely. But I did not complain. My parents have sent me to a good school, I could not ask for more.

When I started working and earning my own money, I told myself, that this day will not pass without me celebrating. I guess up to until this point, I still think of the same thing.

For the past four years, I make sure I have something in mind. Either I get a surprise party or I plan out with friends or sometimes, I get really lucky, I have both.

Today is different. I didn't have anything planned out. Maybe because they are not here to celebrate with me.

(pardon the pictures, those are what have managed to collect)

I have the best and the sweetest of friends in fact. And hell, today, I miss them even more!

And it keeps getting better. I have met and found more beautiful and kind people, who are as equally as fun as my friends back home. And thanks to them, It's a little less lonely. I still miss home but glad it's more and more becoming a little less homesicky, I mean, if there's ever a word.

So today, on my birthday, I say somewhat a different prayer. Every year, maybe for the past ten years, I pray and thank for another year, for my family, for blessings and for good health. But today, I pray and say my thank yous for friends. For my ever wonderful, kind hearted and fun loving friends. As they say, "many will come but few will stay" You all know who you are =)

PPS: For those who want to send in their gifts, pm me for my shipping address ;p

Postsecret of the Day

2008-08-10T05:11:20Z